blame it on me

What kind of human I am? I started this feeling, I confess and I asked to much from him. He done nothing... just trying to be a good friend. And me? Huuuuft... if I were him, maybe I already trow something in front of that person, but I'm sure he won't do that.... some of friends blame him to be a numb person, for not being care about the feeling I have. But in any situation I won't blame him. Definitely my own mistake.... he offers nothing, I just dealing with unreachable dreamin that I have. n now all I can do is make another dealing and re-arrange my feeling, self healing my heart. I wish it as easy as formatting the full hardisk just push shift del and everything is clear without kept in recycle bin.... I wish....