No Regret

Ok then, he knew... well informed...

So? It was not like what I've expected... actually I don't even know what I've expected after he knew about all these things... ewhh I think whatever the reaction was I shall be surprised, and I am!

But I won't regret it... I must not...

Even at the first time , I feel like just want to runaway from his life ever (errr actually still feel that way now), but with nice and wisely (I think that) he want to convince me that we still can be friend...

Friend? do I want it that way? well I might expect too much on it, even if I closely know that he care about me as a friend, F.R.I.E.N.D (well noted, capitally and bold *sigh)

Rasanya gimana? Malu for sure, since this is like the first time in my life I confess my deepest feeling for someone... errrr... Rasanya kalo ada bolongan salju sedalem 7 meter pengen terjun aja ke dalemnya biar gw membeku bersama perasaan gw dengannya...

Marah? yeah... bisa dibilang gt juga... lebih marah kepada diri sendiri juga... agak lebih marah when he said he's been through it (same feeling as I am) all the time (off course with someone)
Karena rasanya dengan sok tau dan kepo nya gw bisa mengira who's that girl is... dan more less make me burn into the fire (nyanyi:p)

Semoga aja pikiran gw salah, semoga aja itu bukan perempuan yang selama ini gw pikirkan karena hanya dy lah perempuan yang sering diceritain ama si bapak... well whoever she is, she's been successfully made 2 hearts broken... (syallalalala)

Now I'm still embarrased to talk to him... even in the chat... yeah...

Oh and one more thing that made me upset is that he think that all the blog I wrote is nice and a lil funny... padahal gw ga bermaksud menghibur hikshikshiks

OK, now I don't where it will go... Yg jelas percakapan dan pengakuannya itu bikin jet lag gw nambah parah di Basel, tapi yeah... just like what I said, no regret....

Just hope that I can manage my heart as well as my brain...

But deep inside my heart I still want to wait he can change is mind (hahaha, it could be only unreachable dream sih), but outside still I want to move forward, fast forward 128x kalo bisa mah...

Could I?